its really important for men to stand up to other men who say terrible and sexist shit
because sexist men dont listen to what women have to say
literally the most important thing men can do if they want to call themselves feminist allies
Home Sweet Home
I should have posted this last night, but I was too busy catching up with my family, and I was very tired once I got back to my house.
Yesterday afternoon, my mom picked me up from college to go home for the weekend and visit with our cousins who I don’t get to see often. I had a really great night last night, but it was honestly so strange going home, even after just being away for 2 weeks. A few things I noticed:
- I felt like a stranger in my own home. Although I’ve lived there from the time I was born, there was a strange foreignness about my house when I walked in last night.
- I kept waking up in the middle of the night, confused about where I was. I actually panicked at one point because I thought that I had fallen asleep somewhere on campus and I had no clue when that could’ve happened.
- It was so nice to take a shower without wearing flipflops or having other people’s hair stuck all over the walls. I felt much cleaner in general.
- I felt so much closer to my family after having been away from them for a few weeks, but I found that a few of the habits that we each have that used to create tension between all of us seemed more magnified since I haven’t had to deal with the family dynamic for a little while.
- As much as I wanted to just relax and spend quality time with my family, I had so much work to do that I really only got to interact with everyone for a few hours over the whole weekend.
So, all in all, it was a nice trip home, if only for a short time. I happened to see a text that my aunt sent my mom after I had gotten off the phone with her about how she thinks I’m missing home. I’m not sure why I resent that statement so much, but actually being home for the weekend made me realize that it’s not my physical home that I miss. It’s more of missing having familiar people around who I can connect with on such a deep level. I miss having people around who understand me and allow me to let my guard down for a little while. I haven’t found that here yet, but hopefully I will in time.
I miss being on here so much! Not going to lie, school has been insanely stressful for me. I’ve been doing work constantly, and I don’t think I’ve gotten more than 5 hours of sleep any night since I started classes. I also feel really stressed about the fact that I’m not making a lot of friends here, but I never have much time to make plans so that I can connect with other people on campus. I’m not sure if all of this is normal and it’s just something I’ll have to adjust to, if I actually am taking a heavier workload than most people, or if the whole atmosphere of this particular school just doesn’t work for me (which I sensed would be the case before I even got here).
I’m sorry I’m complaining so much; everything is just so stressful right now, and I feel like everyone else around me is dealing with all of the new changes just fine. Fingers crossed that things will get easier soon!
College Living: Day 4
These past few days have certainly been interesting! I’m more conflicted about my feelings for this school than I was when I first got here. Sometimes I’ll be out doing something that makes me think, “Get me out of this place now!” and sometimes I’m perfectly content with calling this unfamiliar place my home for at least the next year. I think it all comes down to the fact that it took so long to build such solid and trusting relationships with the friends that I had in high school, and I’m so scared that I’ll never reach that level with anyone here. Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of nice people that I’ve met, but also others that seem completely close-minded about making new friends now that they have established a group of their own. This campus is also so small that I’m already ready to venture out into town, which I’m going to do tomorrow. Tonight, my roommate and I circled campus a few times, and it was nice to get out into the fresh air away from the huge crowds of people for a little while. So, while I’m still unsure how I feel about this school, I do have to say that the past few nights have been delightfully strange and entertaining, and I have met some great people who I’m hoping to learn more about during the next several months.
All moved in to college!
My first day of college was pretty much a success! After we moved everything into my dorm room and got it all put away, I felt really at ease about how the rest of my day would go. Sadly, I didn’t have the opportunity to really get to meet and chat with too many new people yet. I’m very nervous about the rest of my orientation weekend, to be honest. I feel like it would be so much easier to be the new kid at school rather than trying to make friends with a bunch of other people who don’t know each other. It just seems so overwhelming to me, being an introvert. I know it’s pretty critical that I’m open and social with everyone in the next few weeks, but the thought of it is so exhausting, and I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep and recharge for a while.
I’m back (hopefully for good)!
So I’ve made posts in the last couple of months promising follow-up for certain things, like my gluten free challenge. I honestly thought I would have the time to sit down and blog everyday, but I’ve been so, so busy getting ready for college, and tomorrow is finally the day I move in!
I really hope that this won’t be another empty promise, but I would very much like to start blogging more about my life at college, as well as discuss ways to stay healthy while living on campus, study strategies, etc. I’m not going to say it is definite, but I’ll make my best effort to be back on here more frequently!